Bliss.

I couldn’t either.  Until today.

I was leaving a shoot for a health and fitness show for cable, about to make the trek home.  While I was listening to Kenny Chesney and making mental checklists of things I needed to get done, I slipped out a smile.  Today was fun, the shoot went great, and who know? It could lead to even more.

Thankfully, I am not unaccustomed to this feeling of contentment, or pride, or accomplishment… or even happiness in general.  I feel truly blessed most mornings and I still have moments of bliss that take my breath away.  I relished in the grin before being snapped back to reality with an email notification.

The email was asking me for a background check following a callback I went on.  From the Travel Channel.  Sure it’s just a pilot, and yes nothing is set in stone.. but I am so close to my dream life, I can taste it.

In this brief instance I was overcome with joy.  An uninhibited bliss I hadn’t felt since my childhood. I felt like I was in the right place at the right time.  That the stars were aligned, that my destiny was in my hands.. and that, after getting lost and breaking down a time or two, I was finally on the right path.

This might not be my break, but it was the reminder I needed that my dreams are attainable.. and if I hang in there and stay positive, they will come to fruition.

I don’t always love myself, but I’m trying to learn to.  And with each day that I work to find myself and discover who I am and who I want to become, I feel a little closer to actualizing my dreams.

 Now that I know this feeling, I want to aspire to find it again, and again until it’s a normal indulgence.  I’m going to double count my blessings, hope for the best, put myself out there and reach for the stars …but hopefully feel completely content if I land somewhere close instead.

And I wish the same for all of you. too. 🙂